Solace again

I must report that those previous 3 blog enteries were written about 3 months ago or so.  I had originally posted them on another blog and then decided that I really did not wish to disclose that information online.  I however saved them considering that I might repost them at a later time.  This is that time.   I attest that the information is pretty accurate to my experiences.  I do not believe that my psychosis ever raised itself to the level that I was a harm to myself, others or that I might do any damage to property.  I was very disturbed during those years, from probably 2001 to about 2004.  A lack of success in securing a prosperous training program and furthering my education were a main consideration.  Finances were tight. I eventually was afforded Social Security Disability after the 2001 hospitalization.  It was actually offered to me in 1999 when I was put on an administrative leave from my Anesthesiology residency.  I declined at that time.
I must say that this account makes me sad.   I dont find myself thinking of these experiences at all today.  I do not have any fear of another psychotic 'break' as I did experience probably 2 times.  I must report that it was a scary experience and I was never prepared for such an experience.  Perhaps there was a psychospirutal mystical component of this experience as well.   I must report that finding my way to strengthen my religious beliefs and practices has had a huge benefit on my daily happiness, health and sanity.