Upon leaving my residency in San Antonio. I was provided a chance to read my physician evaluations of my performance. I can only remember one. The evaluation stated "worst surgical intern ever". I was shocked. I was shocked a professional physician would speak so unprofessionally about a phsician in any capacity in a legal-professional endeavor. I was probably not the "worst" surgical intern to have ever lived. I can report no major casualties or any deadly mistakes. True one of my attendings lost his pager and I believe I actually found it for him. True I was agitated with a nurse one time on call at 4 am when called to see a patient later than I should been called. True I was "reported" to have written a medication error for a Micronase order. True I was not the most on top of every detail resident. But to say I was the worst shows me that I was indeed in with the wrong people. To this atteding I say the following:
Dear Dr. T.P.,
I met you breifly once and only was with you for about 3 minutes one day when you had a trauma that had an unsuccessful fatal outcome (a 16 year old female motor vehicle crash). I must say that I had looked forward to the opportunity to get to know you and work with you. You had no experience with me and perhaps your evaluation reflected the remarks of my seniors. Either way, I have not forgotten the embarrassment and the pain and trouble your evaluation caused my young physicians caliber. I was hoping for success and I was not your enemy. Please forgive me for my inability to be the best of interns. I hope I can forgive you your callous and undeserving commentary.
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