Existential Quandary

I may or may not keep this blog online.  I realize that it is the most provokative of the blogs that I have to share.  I do believe my thoughts on this topic to be proper in thought.  That said, I do again not wish to expose myself to the celebrity that may accompany a blog that deals with Jewish life and issues of righteous conduct or poor expressions.   I took the blog down today and I rationalized that perhaps this blog may be better used to help me sort my own mind on some of these topics.  As well, I considered making it a private blog by which only a select few may have access to its content.  I thought I'd wait until after sabbath this week to consider republishing online.   That said, I asked myself how I would feel if I did not publish this blog and realized that if that was so, it would never a chance for what I see as my own inner light to be shared with the living universe.  Maybe not a unacceptable experience at the level of not getting my family and myself a level of notoriety that I personally do not wish to find.  That said, I am going to go ahead with it.  I do not wish to be notorious, but I do hope that really my insights as I see them to be may serve our futures.   May it be for a blessing.