Location Lunar Surface

Hey readers.  I thought I was done writing on this blog today but yet there is more.  I lay down, I see where my mind takes me and I decided it has to be written.  So here it is.  I just discovered that I am no longer sitting here all shabbas long just "waiting" for shabbas to be over... so I can use the computer, so I can use the television set, so I can make a phone call.  I must say I didn't think that God created Shabbas to interrupt our existence as much as he did to elevate it.  I did feel my existence was elevated, but I really often wanted to get the day over with.  I liked to go out and smoke but I will tell you that today, smoking is just not on my mind at all.  Perhaps because my mind is indeed happier.  Perhaps because I am finding engaging ways to really enjoy the day.  That said, I don't expect any of the religious jews to agree with me, not one Iota.  I am just a fellow who was reform to begin with and they will think I am reform today as well. Where are they in my day, I must ask? I was asked never to return to the "orthodox" / ChaBaD synagogue in town and who is really looking out for me anyhow anymore.  I called ChaBaD headquarters twice and never got a call back despite messages and talking to secretarial personell.  That said, one I contacted even told me that the only hope for a man like me is to go to a psychiatrist, not keep TORAH.  So I hope that you all excuse my interference in your activities.  I will be what I think my Creator wants me to be.  Thanks to Hashem we are a human society.  Lets start acting like one and consider the ideas presented by a man or a woman, especiallyi one with a scientific acumen and one who kept the full book as perfect as possible for a one year experience.  That has a lot of merit and if you don't think so, get my book and read it twice then throw it in the trash. I might in fact write all of these comments from today into book form and maybe someone should then tell me what its like to really be Jewish.  For I am no longer allowed to be a True Jew in the town I enjoy as the ChaBaD is telling me that psychiatrists are more important than Torah.  So so much for ChaBaD.  I never liked them anyhow and I just liked being called for a torah honor and meeting a few new friends.  Thanks!