For the past few weeks, I have decided I might be intelligent to look into the crimes of the holocaust, study the details and learn more about the devicement of thuggery, murder, theft and unified national death marked with insipid and mortifying hatred for mankind. In doing so, I must admit that I have become more and more and more insipidly angry and angry and angered.
In the past week, I made a call to a person who has in many instances done some treacherous and abysmally seemingly irreparable harm to my own personal experiences and life.
In that call, I was angry and made a comment that I hope that the person has a punishment to fit that person's crime.
In immediate fashion upon the conclusion of a cellular answering service message, it dawned immediately upon me that I had anger issues.
I called a psychotherapist/psychologist.
Here is the results of a first and effective visit.
1. I am now realizing that my issues stem from an inability to forgive.
I was offered some reading materials to purchase that deal with forgiveness. (the Art of Forgiveness by Lewis Smedes).
I must say that after the session, I realize from 2 critiques that there is in fact a place for forgiveness and that I was marginally on the way.
I will continue to adjust my own "sails" in life as it may be and hope that this is for the future in a positive and meaningful manner (of course) and this will serve myself and others well.
I also have come to realize that when I was in the session in the early portion, I was "pushing the mind" of the ph.d psychologist in a way as to in a way flatter my own "lifeline". This was commented upon and I simply suggested that my efficient and quick manner to report my own personal history was from the stem of being once a surgical interested physician who had to make quick reports to convey detailed and fully sufficient information to another physician in the practice of working on rounds prior to the needs of our company and occupational needs.
I think that reworking this situation, I may have an issue with flattery at some extent. Not in so much that I flatter the one I am with and that was never a contention, but simply that in a situation where I am burdened by a newcomer and a new person, especially in my own line of helping me do my own job or doing my own reform or reparticipation in a general community, I was indeed trying to sort of "write the other party's name once and then twice".. That is a form of flattery and I realize today that it is not for the best of any participation.
So I being a doctoral physician needing to rehash and resurface the green in the world I belong decided to find some reading material on this topic.
Reorganizing your own situation is the degree you must attain in revamping your own wherewith all.
I found the following two books to be of interest and downloaded the samples (will see if I need to do a full purchase at another time):
1. The Vain Self Flatteries of the Sinner [Illustrated] by Jonathan Edwards and Charles River
2. Flattery - the Passionate Mind State by shijian shen
Surely as this list contends, its a passionate state of mind; but in some fashion, in all cases, flattery is a form of some sinful conduct at a likely imperceptible level to many especially the flatterer.
So here I go, onward and upward lets conject.
I will say however that upon finding these books on flattery, I now feel that I have a station in life that was really not exactly in finitude.
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